I just want to feel excitement again. I want to stop taking everything to heart. I feel like not only do I owe it to myself to be a better person, but I owe it to you. I want to give so much but I want to sincerely feel like I don’t want anything in return. But let’s face it, I’m human. I want to move, I want to feel like I’m number one, I just want to be important. I want to stop being in the middle of other peoples negativity. Maybe I just have “only child syndrome” but I just want some credit for something good not all the bad.
I don’t know how to turn the “wants” into “haves”. I don’t even know where to begin.
Just when I feel like I’m getting better I fall right back into the same hole I was in before.
I want to talk to you. I do.
I think that’s how most my problems could be solved. But I’m too scared to test my theory because, what if its not what you want to hear.
I love you. I do.
I love myself. …I want to.
tomorrow is going to be one long day. So glad that I’ve been putting myslef first lately. Been super happy!